I got this thinking recently.

For my future partner, I would not choose one that I love. I would choose one that will love me more. It's not because I am selfish in relationship. But, to look for someone that I love, it's super hard. Or maybe I love him but he don't love me. So, why don't I choose one that love me more. Then, sooner or later, I will love him. And who knows maybe one day, I will be the one that will love him more.

I just don't want to start a relationship with the one that I love. Cause it's very hard for me to find one that I will love. Really really hard. I don't know why. Maybe my age is increasing, and I became more and more choosy in selecting partner.

It's not that I don't want to have a partner, just that I couldn't find one that suit. That's why I got this thinking recently.

Why I feel like I am getting more and more choosy. WHY??
I am getting old. I shouldn't become more and more terrible in choosing. Please STOP it!!